Four String Fling

2010-04-26T15:51:00.003+08:00

Vinylshakerz - One Night In Bangkok

Things happen for a reason, but don't let them just happen to you.

Being a human is exhausting, so i'll be an owl.

I love the selarang kids.

Soon, soon,
All this will be over.

Edouard is a french sausage with white cream mushroom sauce.

2010-04-12T22:45:00.002+08:00

Slayer - Psychopathy Red

I take that back. I'm having a deep mistrust of people around me.

Except the very few.

2010-04-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

Taio Cruz - Break Your Heart
Craig David - Insomnia

But now i'm sitting here thinking i've messed this whole thing up, up, up, up.

I've always believed that things happen for a reason, and I won't stand down this time.

2010-04-02T01:18:00.002+08:00

Cheryl Cole - Fight For This Love

Slowly but surely.

I rather screw my life and do all the shit i want during these two years, and look back and laugh at what i did, knowing very well i'll never reach that state every again.

Rather than looking back and regret not doing so many things, and bust my life up and go through a mid-life crisis.

Go through hell first, then you'll learn to appreciate the pearlies.

2010-03-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

Cheryl Cole - Fight For This Love

My days are extremely busy and tiring.

Its hard to keep still in a room for 8 hours you know :D

I'm looking at a double degree for business and law, but the nus person made it sound awfully hard to get into. So, which one?

I JUST LOVE THE BLACK ONE.

2010-03-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

Cascada - Dangerous
- Bad Boy

I'm infected by the sound!

AAA/B with an A for GP. B for econs.

You saw my reaction when I recieved the paper. Nothing really, i'm so far adrift from the world that i derive no pleasure from it. Alas, its just a small warm feeling.

Now its time for a real headache.

2010-03-04T23:28:00.001+08:00

Cascada - Evacuate The Dancefloor

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
So I can grow up once again

Watch 3 Idiots!

Results? Pah.

2010-03-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

VLP - If I Could Be You

Serving the nation isn't the main issue now.

Sigh.

2010-02-26T23:55:00.002+08:00

Little Boots - Remedy

No more poison killing my emotion
I will not be frozen dancing is my remedy

:)

I'm now a B Vehicle Technician!

And I finally feel worried and excited about things after so long!

Life looks up now. Smile :)

2010-02-16T17:54:00.003+08:00

Cascada - Evacuate The Dancefloor
- Bad Boy

Woooo Cascada is back!

My last book in before passing out on friday!

The start felt like shit, but i guess the experience was well worth 7 weeks of zombieing around. I'll miss Quebec Platoon 1 Section 3, we stuck together and ended up with zero confinements for the section =D. It'll probably be the last time i'll ever handle and fire a rifle too. For all that i disagree with inside, army teaches you to appreciate the things and people around you, which everyone seems to miss out on these days.

All is well.

2010-02-07T00:04:00.002+08:00

??? - ???

I've been stuck on one of the aussie hardcore shows, 3 uplifting tracks that refused to show up on youtube.

Army changes your life. It makes you so bloody tired your mind goes far adrift in time. I can't recall the last conversation or actually most of the phone conversations i've had in camp. So when you're just too tired to fight back, you just accept anything that's coming your way.

When nothing amazes you anymore, that's probably when you grow up. I've always thought I looked too deep into things, but now i guess i've yet to look even harder.

I do things for a reason, even if i don't know what it is at first. Bullshit, but I've seen for myself that is true. I know that i never made the wrong decision.

Almost everyone else has gone in during field camp, so now i'm stuck with few few people.

2010-01-31T17:29:00.001+08:00

Jay Sean - Down

ONE MORE WEEK OF HELL.

2010-01-24T14:14:00.003+08:00

Jay Sean - Down

I'm back on the second bookout :D life is stressful but fun in camp. enjoy your last week(s) for those going in soon :)

i've learnt some things in tekong:

1. Nobody is perfect, or probably even close. Its the most obvious thing to say, but it does take a while to get into your head.

2. I realised that i'm quite lost in life. Its been a goddamn full circle, but the most dangerous place is usually the safest place as well.

so how? i'll answer that in a week.

2010-01-04T09:41:00.003+08:00

Manian - Raver's Fantasy

DAMN IT I MISS YOU.

:D:D:D:D:D:D

so long now!

2010-01-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

Ruffage And Serenity - Headlong Into Mischief

That, has to be the epic track of 2009.

2009 was a blur a disaster a dream and an ascension. Its been a wonderful year, although i've regretted doing and not doing so many things, but all the experiences has indeed made me realise what this world is like and what it takes to survive. I love all my friends and family so much more now.

For all that has happened, you've been the awesome friend who has taught me much and gave me so much support and hope. Thank you for being there, always. I do hope 2010 brings a good surprise and allows paths to cross again.

Good news world, i'll be shipped off to tekong to serve the nation tomorrow afternoon, so

I'LL MISS THE TRACKERS, THE THREE DERANGED SCUTTLINGS(YOU KNOW WHICH INSANE ONES YOU ARE), THE POOL BUDDIES AND THE BLEAK GIRL AND MY TV SHOWS.

Actually it won't be long before i'm back.

So till then, watch this space. And my facebook video for a win.

2010-01-02T07:24:00.002+08:00

DHT - Listen To Your Heart

When you realise that all your emotions are just a result of a change in balance of brain chemicals.

2009-12-10T12:17:00.001+08:00

Rudra - Pathless Path To The Knowable Unknown

When there's the cake, is it better to have a slice of the cake then to have none at all?

2009-11-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

Ultravibes - Drugs

Why in the fucking world did you do that?

The perfectly rational man considers all his options, weighing the costs against the benefits. If we were to do that we'll never get past waking up.

Why did you make that choice? There could have a been a thousand or more different choices you could have made, and a million more possible outcomes that could have come out of it.

Why, did just that particular branch in the probability tree manifest? Is it because of your commendable judgment and intellect that you rationalized and came to the best possible solution? Again that would take forever.

Don't blame yourself for what has happened, nor should you be blaming others. Who made you god to say that decision was meant to be?

Every second there are countless things you could have done, but you chose to do one. Nothing is ever a good decision, so pick the one that makes you happy and stop worrying.

2009-11-04T10:15:00.002+08:00

Basshunter - Don't Walk Away

EUROTRANCE FTW.

A few more days to A's.

So?

I'm fighting for something I seriously don't want to be. A Cubicle Serf.

Think about it. A few years ago, degrees were rare, so everyone looked upon them as gods. But now its population inversion. So what's the next rarity?

Fuck the grades. The stories of people being successful? Who knows what happened to the rest.

When all hope abandons you, abandon all hope. When you know you're dying, you don't hope to live. You write your own obituary and make your own personalized coffin.

Likewise, plan your next best alternative and bloody mean it.

2009-10-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

Metallica - The Frayed Ends Of Sanity

Sometimes when you don't see the problem,

Its either something is blocking it,

Or you're already inside it.

I'm not losing it.

I guess I already did.

2009-10-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Wet Sand

woot! funk!

I'm doing this because I want something satisfying at the end of 12 long years of formal education.

Other than that, I no longer have much desire for anything good to come out of it.

2009-09-30T01:09:00.002+08:00

Muse - Exogenesis

Musically, the album's amazing. More for long time fans who appreciate their complexity.
Not for new listeners though, go for absolution instead.

One to laze around and watch tv shows.
One to contemplate life simply to appreciate and put it aside.
One to be complex and simple.
One to say "So.....?"
One to be spiritually enticing.

Okay son my diagnosis is easy.

Caffeine is a psychoactive drug.

Jam in a long time.

2009-09-13T01:00:00.002+08:00

DJ Cotts - 9/10 September Radio Mix!

I finally got the chance on a wednesday and thursday evening to tune in to the Aussie Hardcore Show! That was pure 2 hours of solid happy happy hardcore.

Wow its been a month. Or More. Well now I think I may have adrenal burnout once again. But who cares, I get high and feel happy. Will do an entry once this whole thing is over.

Only a small minority are aware that I listen to happy hardcore, hardstyle(Yes I find it very emancipating after watching melbourne shuffle) and other forms of dance/trance/house/techno whatever you think it is. I like speed. You know that. I like stuff 170 beats per minute or higher. I like the color that the music produces. The bass still rules my taste.

2009-07-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

Black Tide - Show Me The Way

Please show me the way
And I will never complain
It's only a matter of time
Before I go insane

Black Tide wins. And so do I on taptap.

Hmm. Maybe staying in Singapore isn't so bad. But I still want my MORSE!

Okay more from the Black Swan.

We see people getting successful all around us, and to we react with "Hell I ain't got that, life is unfair!". Well just look at how goddamn big the human population is. Given the huge sample size, there's bound to be some anomalies, especially in areas where exceptional, MINDBLASTING results are possible. What we all see are the ones that are better off, but how about switching that around and trying to avoid being worse off? We know about the things we've achieved, but what about those we've not?

I like the off tangent ones.

2009-07-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

Black Tide - Show Me The Way

Go watch Futurama episode 509 - The Sting. I love this show.

2009-07-27T20:18:00.002+08:00

Black Tide - Shockwave
- Warriors Of Time

I finally got taptaprevenge2! And thats how I came cross the black tide stuff. Best stuff that I've heard in a damn long time.

Anyway I've left this space untouched for a helluva long time cause my life hasn't had any color nor any juicy stuff. Except that I keep doing mixes on VirtualDj and dreaming about the day I finally get tables and mixers. And watching Futurama. Yes its a sad life but i'm prepared to wait for the big smacker that will bring enough mojo back for me to live several lives more.

And in the event that it doesn't manifest,

What the hell I won't even give a shit. I'll be lying in a hospital bed/on the roadside/facing the apocalypse/whatever you can think of and think.

"Hey, all this shit ends now!"

Okay I think the Black Swan book is feeding me weird delusions of reality and possibly altering my linguistic abilities and psychosocial functions. SEE? My whole style and way of thinking has changed totally.

But anyway, the hippocampus controls the memory and tanks all the stress you get. So even giving it small doses of stress every day will destroy it. Our lives have becoming so much focused on the small, quantum details of life, we care about every damn shit that crosses our senses. We stress over every small mistake that we make. I believe alot of these details are simply noise and random fluctuations in our systems that will correct itself. I'm not saying every such system in life applies, just the events that depend heavily on luck, but we just can't see it that way, prefering to theorize and generalize.

Okay so I won't become an engineer or accountant. But well, who cares?

Alright time for some minor details. I got BCEE for ct2s. So i aimed 4a's or something around there but strangely I feel satisfied with the result. Maybe i'm already immune to the damage.

There you have it, a couple of brain cells died for this post. SO MAKE IT WORTH.

2009-07-18T00:53:00.002+08:00

Yoji Biomehanika - Monochroma

As I was walking down to the hill to my block just now, I felt something following me. I turned back and momentarily tensed all over as I saw a figure just behind me. But alas, it was my shadow.

To be afraid of something like small like this, suggests that i'm being paranoid and uneasy. You see, that is the problem when you start becoming too aware of the events happening around you. I don't want to read into anything. I fucking hate these thoughts flying around.

Each day I'm not awake. I'm quite unable to feel any sort of emotion deeper than the skin. So?

Its you, its you. I'm you.

2009-06-27T23:56:00.003+08:00

Brisk & Stormtrooper - Twatris

okay happy hardcore overdose. but its still my drug :)

Some day i'll open a rave bar. Some day.

So i'm kinda done with revision for CTs. I think i've given it a darn good shot(4 weeks of fatigue), so whatever i get, i'd take it.

Risk say I. Impress me.

2009-06-17T00:23:00.003+08:00

Slipknot - (Sic)

I just love Slipknot lyrics.

After a three seasons of Titus, I have a feel conclusions.

Live every day like a brand new one. Add uncertainty into your life. Satisfy instead of maximise. How random is that.

and don't forgot the classic, one thing that sums everything up,

"Don't be a wussy!"

Walls, let me fall, fuck you all!
Get a grip, don't let me slip 'till I drop the ball

2009-06-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

Slipknot - Gematria

Give me a minute and i'll change your mind
Give me a minute and i'll change your life

Woot. Maggots all the way.

SO ENDS A WEEK OF REPLACEMENT SHAKES AND SUBWAY.

god don't i feel clean now.

I've spent the last few days at airport Macs, coffee bean and the best mug place ever; expo coffee bean. Except when business execs come swarming in during a convention. But otherwise i managed to get a year's worth of work done there. Go Coffee Bean!

2009-06-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

Slipknot - Gematria
- Sulfur
- Psychosocial

IT HAS BEEN LONG. and i've been listening to slipknot's all hope is gone album. months ago i read a few reviews which claim that it wasn't really good, but i think they've just gotten better and fresher with it.

Musicfest was long past, bringing back a second glass display and SOAP. Plus a male sports bra. Oh well those were fun times :)

Nothing really life changing happened over the month, but i did some pretty drastic decisions. Again being the chosen optimist, the laugh-at-life attitude, I believe everything I did was the right one. Oh well it taught me alot in the end, didn't it.

Besides living the trivial details of my current boring life, I've been enlightened by Nassim Nicholas Taleb. Go look him up.

It doesn't pay to consider the consequences ahead of our decisions. Or rather the so called "far-sighted" ones. If life were that predictable, which everyone claims to be able to do so, there wouldn't be much of that misery and wailing and whining. Problem is, life is volatile. The so called far sightedness usually considers a singly constructed path, but what about the alternate histories that could be made? Face it, the world changes so damn rapidly and so do people. The exceeding amount of possibilities will drive you nuts when you try and rationalize it. So, in a nutshell, whack and see what happens. Thats basically how I live now.

I've been unhappy previously. From looking at others and becoming increasingly frustrated at why I can't have the same fortune. I guess we've all been programmed by the systems in society to benchmark ourselves. We set a standard for everything and try to stay on the right side of it. Then we feel the emotional tension of skirting around this line, thats all that we work for. Its good, society progresses because of that. But it turns ugly when it's applies to a community and drives us up the wall. If you want to be happy, focus on yourself and be glad for others. Call it selfish, but it is envy and despair that are part of the seven sins. And it doesn't stop you from helping others.

Okay i needed to get that out of the system.

2009-05-04T22:10:00.003+08:00

Helloween - Anything My Mama Don't Like

oh i love this one, and the album. i've never given it a good listen to these week when i went through High Live. Classic power metal.

She represents all that you stand for, but she just doesn't seem right.
She makes you feel better, but she represents the one thing you can't accept.

wait, what if you're wrong?

2009-04-24T18:25:00.002+08:00

Basshunter - Bass Creator

the itouch rocks now the school has wifi.yaaargh.

I'm just done with training and feeling terribly bored.
Honestly, I don't know what I want. I don't feel right doing all this.
Perhaps it's just a routine anti moment. or maybe there's something really wrong in
All of this.

2009-04-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

In Flames - Crawl Through Knives

this is the best song off the come clarity album, okay there's a hint of emo in it, but it's still good music. the album's really good, but i guess relative to their previous albums it pales a little.

monday came and went there went 6 years of throws. 5th placing doesn't look too bad, but i guess i could have done much better. usually every year an emotionally charged post will follow up, but this year's feeling is rather different. i don't feel the sting that badly this year. i guess its just this season went by way too quickly. so much more to do, but alas time caught up.

maybe i'm just a little lost these days, or maybe i just don't care much at all.

maybe my soul has been sold for rock n' roll.

2009-04-07T22:17:00.002+08:00

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Make You Feel Better

oh man how i miss the peppers. i miss the days when i was all over rhcp, that was the peak of the slap bass craze.

my days have been rather bleak and uplifting, each day would definitely have its peak and trough, how exciting. firstly, i pretty much off-form, injured both knee ligaments, and suffering from a nasal infection which is slowly spreading down to the lungs. secondly, CT results are out long ago, 3 D's and 2 E's, just a point improvement from promos. well i'm neither crushed nor elated cause i spent the week before that studying, and succumbed to L4D a day before. thirdly, the chinks are through to the semis for musicfest. i wonder what's gonna come next.

i have the urge to find a quiet place for myself in the morning, so i can listen to the ipod and hear myself. in fact, its most of the time. just rather sick of crowds these days. oh the joy of being alone, i finally found it.

d(-_-)b

2009-03-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

Seventh Wonder - Banish The Wicked
- Not An Angel

seventh wonder exhibited their crazy technical skills in these two songs, crazy crazy crazy arpeggios and improvisations, especially by andreas blomqvist.

tomorrow will be the last day anyone would see my face-obscuring fringe for i cannot take the trouble of waxing and clipping it so it doesn't fall down and blind me.

i was reading seth godin's stuff again. what if we disrupt the status quo? sometimes the risk is waiting to be taken. have the guts to do it.

coincidentally, this post happens to be the first post to exceed the previous blog. hmm.

2009-03-21T21:58:00.002+08:00

Behemoth - Be Without Fear
Cosmic Gate - Exploration Of Space

i think i'm going nuts over trance now. exploration of space is godlike, seriously.

okay i finally got a breather from a crazy two days in the YEE workshop. well i guess it was better than expected, much better. met a few interesting people and did a major load of thinking and whacking, leaving me pretty battered mentally. oh wells, i'll update that another day, right now i just need sleep, a good swim and a carton of fruit juice.

jam on wednesday with priscilla was pretty okay, considering its the first time in god knows how long we're slowing things down past 180bpm. well i just hope that it goes well, the songs we're doing are really high stuff.

okay sleep sleep sleep. ugh school's coming.

2009-03-19T20:00:00.002+08:00

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Hump De Bump

for giving me hell trying to get the sound right for this song, but for writing such a crazy kickass song, flea you're right muthafucking ass.

okay i've got YEE course for the last 3 days of my holidays. it was supposed to be from tuesday to wednesday, when i had much less things to do. now i'm sacrificing a hell lot of things for this, so the karma better turn out right for me.

there's training at choa chu kang tomorrow, one that i desperately need. but i've got my course. and there's a jam at night, damn right i'm going to be dazed and confused again.

2009-03-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

Kamelot - Forever

i just remembered how important the old phone was to me.

well, now its all coming home. I never got sick of our conversations. I never felt tired even though they lasted a few hours. Since, most interactions haven't been as appealing.

But still. it had to happen.

2009-03-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

Nile - Lashing To The Slave Stick
Frisky & Hujib - Get Away(Gammer Remix)

music has never been about confining yourself to what you like, rather anything that blows you away at the moment.

well cts are almost over, each paper rather shaky but i'm still delightfully bliss. i'm glad i didn't slip into those depths last week, when things were at their lowest. for now, be happy be hardcore.

okay i have nothing going on cause i have no life these days. it seems like i have one, but honestly i don't recall what happened the previous day each day. its just blank everyday. hmm.

and when i listen to songs these days, i seem to have an extra sensitivity to small details in the songs. i hear stuff then i haven't heard of previously. i must be going mad.

2009-03-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

In Flames - Jotun
- Food For The Gods

go find Jotun if you can, classical melodic metal.

anyway, i've been reading Seth Godin's blog again. I really admire this guy for cutting up the working society into pieces and using simple logic and common sense to point out why so much money and effort is wasted in marketing products etc these days. Go have a read and be inspired.

now, ct's are a day away(from the play ground). i've decided to finally go all out superficially and generally tomorrow and each day. I'll see how much rushing and having the last minute pressure thing works for me. Funny, i don't sweat when i'm nervous, and i sweat buckets when i'm extremely cool and calm. thats why i should just come to the exam all drenched.

so tired i am, i still appreciate it.

2009-03-02T22:16:00.002+08:00

Seventh Wonder - Unbreakable

She's taking her own life
Breath by breath prepares for death
All alone in the world
She's trapped without her dreams

Imagine the pain she must feel
How can I stand in peace and watch as
The will to smile has gone
How can it be?
Merges as darkness
Will follow and enter the light
Or is it just the way
The human nature fails to keep up high
And lets the shadow break the unbreakable

yay i found lyrics for this, great stuff they can come up with.

gig at parklane mall was quite alright, not too spectacular but not rubbish either. brian had to use a keyboard amp for guitar while we couldn't hear anything as usual. and there was blackout right after we played Paranoid. but well thanks for coming down to thrash the place down with Xanadoo and the other metal bands( there's good stuff around).

i feel damn tired. but a sort of internal energy seems to be keeping me going.

2009-02-23T22:01:00.002+08:00

Megadeth - Countdown To Extinction

inspiration for us all, dave mustaine has magic.

hmm. tonight isn't the night for words, i'm totally beat out and i'm too lazy to think, so no new lyrics or whatever. i hit 13m and around pretty constantly, so there's a good chance i'll set a new record this saturday, but well i still pray that my form stays.

polarix is having a gig this sunday! at katong village, which is just next to roxy square and katong mall, so if you're free, do get your tickets from us. well its been a while since we last did an insane gig, and we're geared for a whole set of even more insanely stuff, so it'll be worth the trip :D

cts are bloody coming! i think i'm okay for math and physics, but chem and econs is rather out of sync right now. i have two weeks, wish me luck.

anyway, i've done a few mixes using VirtualDJ, and i'm lovin' it. but i'll start to get real serious once i've decided to get decks instead.

i sense a change. i don't know, but its a rather different view i have right now. sigh.

man am i tired.

2009-02-08T21:45:00.004+08:00

DJ Ravine - Absolute Ch00nage Happy Hardcore Mix

- Merry Christmas Hardcore Mix

thats gotta be the longest titles i've ever put. the ch00nage one really owns though, check it out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQ5ItWIEOvM

taken from seth godin's blog, author of Small Is The New Big, Unleashing the Ideavirus and such.

are you lonely, scared and bitter? or busy, happy and prosperous?

i find myself busy with lots of stuff(finally doing some work, going for lectures, training like more
than usual,
trying to create a purple cow genre etc)

happy from laughing at something for the whole day, smiling alot, being free.

prosperous from saving so much money bringing my salad to school, not spending on stupid stuff,
opening up to people.

i find myself rather calm these days. and a lot more positive. maybe you should try it too.

2009-02-03T21:54:00.002+08:00

Gamma Ray - It's A Sin

power metal with alternate rhythms? gamma ray did that too.

there's a problem where i'm going to be called to take a stand soon. i have a strong feeling about it.

i want us to stay together. i still believe that we make an awesome team who is able to produce good works. we've had our fun. but it has come to a point where our differences must be settled. frankly, i'm torn between my choices. now, its not about the superficial disagreements, but the respect we give. i'll decide in due time.

i see the bleak creeping up slowly.

2009-02-01T22:05:00.003+08:00

Crobian - Happy Hardcore Mix 5

go search him on youtube, another dj with awesome happy hardcore mixes.

"the real world is for people who can't imagine it" -Simpsons Episode 2009

admittedly, i've been living a semi-delusional life for January, but i guess it's all perception to everybody. the real world's for people to fall back on, where they feel secure and in control. what is real if there's no unreal? i had a chilling thought about the future and death, which comes back to the subject of reality.

i wonder why i feel so much more calm. hmm.

anyway, i'm still feeling good, despite a sprained ankle and something wrong with my knee, all on the left leg.

2009-01-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

Helloween - Final Fortune

wow i realised how long i left this place untouched. and i've left the old favourites unplayed for quite a long time too.

you know, i think happy hardcore changes people. the start of 2009's pretty special. for once i walk around with no regard for the things around me. for the first time i've survived on salad for lunch for a month. i'm listening in class. i'm training my ass off and i like it. i'm improving for the first time. god i feel happy and healthy.

small is the new big. stay small, think big. think free. think hardcore.

We try to force our final fortune
As if we knew the final score
And we pretend to know things better
In our madness we ignore
How small we are
We are

Far above this ignorance
A higher force you'll find
Forever giving answers to the blind

When fate comes calling you
You don't know what to do
Behind the world we're living in
Is so much more than we do know
There's ONE who loves you so
Behind the world we're living in
There's so much more than we will ever get to know

Protecting nations, wealth and soldiers
Collecting fame and victory
Inventing star-ships, tanks and rockets
But still we don't know how to see
The love in our hearts
Our hearts

Far from all this ignorance
A higher force would share
Verity and hope
But we don't care

When fate comes calling you
You don't know what to do
Behind the world we're living in
Is so much more than we do know
There's ONE who loves you so
Behind the world we're living in
There's so much more than we will ever get to know

2009-01-11T21:14:00.002+08:00

Megadeth - Countdown To Extinction
- Sweating Bullets

good shit that i haven't heard in a while. mustaine is a bloody genius.

Ah. School starts in a few hours.

Lets see, study a little, catch up with everyone, write lyrics and training shall be the plan for tomorrow.

you see, the world was
not what it meant to be
nobody told you about
the sins that runneth free

watch as our leaders
waste and decimate and
weep as the funeral hymn
wraps you in deathly embrace

WEET. Happy Happy Hardcore for you.

2009-01-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

DJ Ravine & DJ Cotts - Back 2 Back Mix

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vowNjxFIJJg

amazing stuff. happy happy hardcore

Its been the first week and i'm shag. And school hasn't started yet. But guess what?

I Don't Give A Shit.

I'm quite satisfied with myself, that i feel much more free and sane nowadays. And i'm much much much happier with my life now =) happy happy hardcore ftw!

i have my life planned out this year. train, study, jam, _____, deeds. but that's just the tip of it all. i want change. a better lifestyle, a better mindset, a better person. i guess i'm on the right track now, things are looking way much un-bleak.

Happy Happy Hardcore Hunter. Way to go.

2009-01-04T21:45:00.002+08:00

DJ Ravine - Micromix Hardcore

I TELL YOU. THE FOUR DAYS OF FEVER AND WHATNOT I HAD HAS CERTAIN DONE THE DEVIL INTO MY MIND.

so now i'm into happy hardcore. my dream is to be in a successful metal band. and another is be a successful happy hardcore dj. so there.

yes back to the fever, i had a stomach flu which has been around since thursday. and the fever keeps coming and going and it has turned my brain into munk. hence the crazy rambling right now.

Perished with my plague
The city ridden by rot
Flesh to ashes, to dust
Plead as our system fought

None shall run
Neither will hide
When the scythe be crossed
Black death claims you all

Consume the pills and
Hold skulls and charms
But behold, the cure
Lies in your sorry mind

2008-12-31T17:50:00.006+08:00

In Flames - The Quiet Place

its 6 hours to the new year. so before i head down for the countdown i thought i'll put a few words here.

It gets better every year i swear. 2008 was a rather different year i guess. every year had quite the same routine, train train train nats fyes. but it was an entirely new programme this time.

PAE - JAE period was quite a ride with orientation, olevel results, people leaving and people coming in. its supposedly the honeymoon period, but it was the only period i actually attended my lectures and stuff.

then came the musicfest phase. i guess the 4 months right up to when our preparations ended were the best 4 months i would ever have. every day in out it was just jams, train, late nights, simpang, joo chiat. no other crap that we had to care about. musicfest 08 came and it was unbelievable. i remember the crowd in the auditorium, the stunning speech by yuhua and probably the high-est performance we ever did. we went home weary, but knowing we thrashed the place flat that night.

june holidays was dubai. it was a blast. real blast. all the stupid stuff we did in the hotel, the shopping, the ahems and all the bitching. plus i lost my phone and almost with a load of other stuff. but still, dubai was quite an eye-opener, not to mention the university kids, who were really crazy stuff.

nationals was next. track camp was in the june holidays, where most of what i remember was naked chickens and tomatos flying all over the basketball court. nationals? once again i was smacked with the figure 8, but overall team did extremely well, even though we fell short of 10 points from snatching the title away. throws 08 was awesome i tell you, i would really miss all the seniors, all their wisecracks and suanning.

but during the nationals period, the singapore band challenge was taking place at well. the two months were hell, shuttling from place to place, from choa chu kang to katong, then off to youth park, clarke quay and the likes. not to mention lugging a bass, pedalcase and a training bag along. we started off in us studios, where we also met della madre, awesome kids. then followed by a jittery prelims, a blasting semis and the emotional finals. all the gigs we did at youth park and arena were far from just memorable; it was the life. met loads of awesome people, not to mentioned buffing up the band's status. we didn't win, but i guess it was a little problem on our part. anyhow, polarix still rulez.

after that promos was coming down hard on us. i tried to handle all the events that were going on at once, but i guess it couldn't work out. i spent weeks at siglap and simei starbucks, marina subway and school trying to catch up work from january. it worked, but i guess i just studied alot of the useless stuff and relied quite a bit on brain to work it all out. it was a disappointing result, couldn't get me the h3 and threw my future into doubt. hell i was determined to study hard this holidays but no suprise that it didn't work out.

and another big part of the year was PW. that was madmadmadmadmad. although i really didn't do much, but it did my health and my mind quite a bit of damage. anyway, it was boring intially, but i guess once we really got to get together for the wr and op it was a rather wonderful time. all the time spent in basil's house, wondering how the magic eye works, lazing around spamming food. the sakae sushi sessions followed by stoning in roxy square. it was enjoyable i admit.

this year end holidays has been wasted, at least most of the days. but during the days which had stuff going on, really got it on. our two gigs recently were pretty cool, playing our first original and alot of headbang worthy material. track chalet was really fun, although the attendance rate was quite pathetic at first. had a great long talk at the beach. and got to know more people too. besides that, i proud to say i'm done with the simpsons series. training performance has also been excellent since, a uber lot of improvement from the nats period.

i've done alot of crazy things this year, binge, getting stoned and wasted many times, blown huge sums of money on many things, first big gig, first written song, first ____, and met many many crazy and wonderful people this year. it has also been quite the emotional year as well i guess. all these experiences have taught a cowload of things, basically all about being a free spirit.

i am over it, but that happened gradually and not that long ago. but i'm still quite glad that it stuck this way. you're still the nicest one around, to me. so stay cool, stay happy, stay shining you star =)

it gets better every year. thanks 2008, 2009 will pwn too.

2008-12-30T00:50:00.003+08:00

Ferry Corsten - Beautiful

damn you ben. damn you. now i listen to ferry corsten. but its good stuff i admit. hell i'm turning into a trance/house freak.

oh dear. i'm into this mess again. oh dear.

2008-12-27T22:39:00.002+08:00

Basshunter - I Miss You
- In Her Eyes

haha the new basshunter album rocks. except that in every song he has the same bass track...

i went to the changi beach club gym today, for the first time this year. and i've pretty much outgrown the weights there =/ but anyhow, the machines there own. seriously its super clean well oiled and the padding hasn't worn out at all.

i just stepped out of hell, and i had better stay out of it. but once again, i'm falling deep. yes i'm much happier this way, so NO.

2008-12-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

Polarix - Psychosis

POLARIX KILLS YOU BABY!

okay the conditions and atmosphere/environment wasn't the best, but polarix still kicks metal up yours! sadly aditya couldn't get the insane double bass fills up cause the place only had a single pedal and the one he rushed back started falling apart cause no one had a drum key. so the beaters started shooting away.

but anyway we played good stuff tonight and to everyone who came down tonight...

YOU FUCKING ROCK.

for thrashing the people until they let us do seek and destroy.

i got a christmas present. i got my soul back from the devil. the best one you can ever have.

i realised for two months i've mopped and emoed about. but there was nothing to be sad about. i believe i have the best things around me.

i'm pumped up now. i just cam back from a gig all tired. but somehow i picked up the guitar and wrote a fucking kickass riff. can't wait till hua gets back so we can all hear it.

2008-12-25T13:24:00.002+08:00

Symphony X - Set The World On Fire
Polarix - Psychosis

Fly with me forever high
And with these wings we'll set the world on fire
Fly with me through scorching skies
You and I will light our lives

i am truly amazed. i went to bed at 11 trying to get some sleep. i tossed, turned, listened to megadeth, metallica, basshunter, symphony x and a bit of lamb till 4 or 5 am. then i finally went to sleep and woke up.

but i'm truly amazed that my fever has subsided.

i don't feel the best of days, but i promise tonight's show will blow your minds away.

2008-12-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

Symphony X - Eve Of Seduction
- Seven

\m/ classical shit.

wtfwtfwtfwtfwtf WTF.

its christmas eve and i'm running a fever of 37.9, and its climbing. holy shit and tomorrow's the homeclub gig.

my christmas wish? to get well and play a fucking good show for everyone tomorrow.

and of course, to keep the people around me close.

fever fever go away! fuck.

2008-12-24T00:10:00.002+08:00

P.O.D - Boom
Lamb Of God - Redneck

today was quite a good day. chicken rice with the throwers at chinatown, followed by a jam with sid at a new studio and clarke quay and ended off with a crazy session at sakura downtown east.

today i realised i'm surrounded by many interesting people. not the bad sort, but the type that never fails to amaze you with what they do. i feel quite lucky suddenly.

this december has given me quite a bit to think about.

2008-12-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

Basshunter - Angel In The Night

don't look at me like that. basshunter is a good source of relief d(-_-)b

You are my light in the dark
You are the beat in my heart
But that is not enough, will I ever be by your side

Your hair is dancing in the wind
Your eyes are burning up my skin
And I'm so happy when I see, that you are smiling back at me

You're leaving burnmarks on the ground
Thank you God for what I've found
I don't know how, I don't know why
But you're my angel in the night

You are my light in the dark
You are the beat in my heart
Let me hold you now, just like days before you start to cry
You are my light in the dark
You are the beat in my heart
But that is not enough, will I ever be by your side

"Prepare For Launch in 3.. 2.. 1"

I try my best to satisfy, but all you do is wave me goodbye
I don't know what I'm gonna do, but I'm so crazy about you
Even if I don't know where to start
Even if my love is tearing me apart
I just know that you and me
We were always meant to be

2008-12-21T23:58:00.003+08:00

Polarix - Psychosis
Seventh Wonder - Fall In Line

thanks and cheers to all who came down for the odiocrib gig on friday, although it was hot as hell and bloody humid, it was a friggin awesome show. and now the new song's out! more to come

meanwhile, there's still the christmas gig at homeclub this thursday, so if you're interested please tag/msg/msn us =)

i've stayed at home again, don't really feel like getting anywhere else other than my room these few days. i love the company of simpsons, the bass and neopets.

this game is not for everyone
like hide and seek
but not as fun

this day we play the game of life
no rules to follow just fire away
roll the dice and place your chips
you never win only pain to begin

its the gamble we all will take
pray your luck runs deep
or you'll be crying while they sleep

2008-12-16T23:19:00.002+08:00

Polarix - The New Song

i'll leave you to guess the title :)

yeah so its done, vocals will be worked out on thursday, when i won't be around due to track camp ugh. but its sounding completely awesome, the riff's been stuck in my head for the whole day.

anyway Polarix will be closing the gig this friday so if you haven't get your tix do so quick! we'll playing playing around 9 or so, so be there!

and since there's track camp tomorrow and the day after, with double sessions each day i'll probably fall asleep on stage.

wowee, whatever happened to you?

All too soon we were divided
And life had just begun

2008-12-15T00:42:00.003+08:00

Kamelot - Forever
- Center Of The Universe

the riff in forever is timeless. i just started a kamelot spree again.

i pity the fool who wasted his time, life and effort away.

god i'm tired. but i've been staying at home since last week. my brain is tired. i started out thinking alot. then gradually fatigue set in and now i don't think as much as i used to be. hence i don't really care about what is happening around me. a car almost ran me over again while i was blissfully away in Mercy Falls. i don't really want to think about what's going on. i get irritated and annoyed by the slightest things these days. and i just blow up, walk off and sulk.

somehow, this might be a breakthrough.

2008-12-08T23:25:00.005+08:00

Seventh Wonder - Unbreakable

this song owns. i wonder how seventh wonder comes up with these stuff. andreas blomqvist rulez \m/

jam on friday wasn't too bad, it was all muscle memory in the end and i'll suddenly snap back to where and the flow falls apart. anyway we've got gigs on the 19th and 25th, yes its a christmas night.

19th december, Metalfest Pt1, Odiocrib(somewhere in bugis), tix at $5 presale, $8 at the door.

25th December, Homeclub, $14 presale, $20 at the door. i think that should be right. Details coming soon!

so be there and be square.

i know what my daily routine is like. wake up at 1030, sleep in till 12. eat brunch. watch simpsons/house/family guy. then dota. on training days its just training in the morning and the rest remains the same. wowee i have an amazing life.

and today i'm pissed. flaming. burn baby burn

drained of your kerosene
none left to rectify
the weary thoughts
that bleed your mind

bear the pain or bear more the same
and be death's to take

burn your soul
to keep it live
the reaper awaits
your charred demise

burn, baby, burn.

2008-12-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

Helloween - Rise And Fall

" you should instead just look on the brighter side of things, stop getting paranoid and just enjoy whatever time you have with your friends and not bother to consider if their serious about you or not. you'll be surprised how much happier you'll be, i know im a much happier person. in conclusion, DONT THINK TOO MUCH "

agreed. i know i'm feeling much better these days. its just the annoying thoughts that comes back every now and then, carves a ditch and leaves.

i've changed alot over the month. much more dead and more much colder i guess. i find myself rather devoid of emotions and dull to that of others. but i'm still happier, no?

i don't want to think.

2008-11-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Helloween - Heavy Metal Hamsters

nothing sets you free like the
Heavy Metal Hamsters!

oh no, everyone's overseas. now i have nothing to do for 2 weeks ):

hmm. i'll get myself a beer. i'm tired.

2008-11-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

Helloween - Just A Little Sign
- The Dark Ride

HELLOWEEN OWNS. TEN TIMES OVER.

okay. so now i feel much more unbleaked, better than the last few days.

i've come to terms with myself. maybe its just temporary, but i really feel that its time to stop thinking about it. its just not right and good both ways.

Time marches, marches on. So stop mopping about your past deeds and march on. All your efforts will just serve as lessons that you will learn from.

"...didn't come here to make a friend"

Its hard, but time marches on.

"...shouldn't I dare to talk to her"

For my business is done here.

"...it's time for just a little sign"

I want out. And its in sight.

"...follow you until kingdom come"

-unbleak-

now, lets have me some :)

2008-11-09T00:24:00.002+08:00

Scorpions - Still Loving You

What a piece.

its been another useless day. i seriously need some new goals/hobbies for this holidays.

i might have bipolar disorder.

jam tomorrow at clarke quay. hope i'm happy and the boys are happy.

i need something. all i need is one good something that will knock me off my senses and then all this madness will stop.

i just want this episode to stop.

BUT WHAT.WHY.WHEN.HOW.

Save your tears for another time
Don't waste this life
On what you don't deserve
Wipe your pain on the bloodstained cloth
Just leave your soul behind

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there ...
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there ...

Fight, baby I fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there ...
Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday
I will be there, I will be there.

2008-11-06T22:49:00.002+08:00

Helloween - As Long As I Fall
- I.M.E
- Can Do It

i've not listened to Gambling With The Devil for more than a few minutes before. that was when i chanced upon Helloween. But now i believe its a marvelous piece of work, no make that EPIC. they're seriously underrated people.

As long as i fall, i'm safe and sound.

this is bad. so bad. i grasp at the straws of reality but fail to come to terms with it. maybe i have, but there is the other part that doesn't.

I divorce the thoughts of you in love with me
I divorce your innocence and my guilt
I divorce the lying sellout confidence
I'm divorcing every mother fucking thing

I divorce the love bled meaningless
I divorce the makeshift harmony
I divorce the taunting acts of violence
I divorce the pastime of jealousy
I divorce control
I divorce the faith
I divorce the virtue
I divorce the rain
I divorce the excuse
I divorce the greed
I divorce the greed
I divorce iniquity

I, divorce, this life.

2008-11-03T22:18:00.002+08:00

Mudvayne - Not Falling
Stratovarius - Phoenix

hmm no particular genre tonight, mix and match.

OKAY. let me get this straight, once and for all.

I AM SICK. AND I AM TIRED OF HIDING IN THE DEEP REALMS OF SHADOWS, BEHIND THIS FATAL FACADE, THIS CLOUD OF LIES, A CLOAK OF DECEPTION, THIS WOOL THATS BEEN PULLED OVER MY EYES.

and now. i'm not gonna run away from this, so whatever i may do, i have no regrets. my dreams and reality, are worlds that collide, confusion and illusion, dancing side by side. i'll accept this for real, it'll take time, but it'll be done.

whatever it may be, i'll choose to make you happy instead.

so there.

tonight, the four horsemen, WE RIDE.

2008-11-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

Seventh Wonder - A Day Away
- Break The Silence
- Welcome to Mercy Falls

i can't get enough of that album, its been on repeat since i got it. its like a metal muse.

anyway this is a little late,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESE!

enjoy your furry friend =D

its 1am, i'm done with my soccer and i'm suffering from a raisin overdose. did i mention i watched family guy and simpsons for the whole day?

hmmm i have new riffs, but no new lyrics for today. its been a really boring day, except for the perilous, treacherous, life-threatening journey this morning. carrying/balancing a big plastic bag, a hamster cage, an umbrella and messaging on a mobile phone is no mean feat. not to mention getting the umbrella swiped off by inconsiderate drivers.

wait, that could be a song. hmm

2008-11-01T00:40:00.002+08:00

Gamma Ray - Real World
- Hear Me Calling

ask me. its been a wrecking and emotionally wrenching day. the time is 12.42am and my chest feels tight. i can't breathe properly. my heart's beginning to palpitate.

Don't shed that tear
Save it for your soul

I've been searching for an oasis
In the desert for so long
In my weakness trying 
To pretend I'm strong

I've been holding on
To things that I have left behind
I've been scared and lonely
I'm crippled inside.

Bathing my soul in the starlight
Healed my wounds in the sun
Screamed my pain to the forest
Asking the question why?

Will there come a time for me when I find peace of mind
Will I always have this feeling like I'm last in the line
I will climb up the mountain and light up a candle and ask:
"Will my soul ever rest in peace?" 

I've been washed in pain
Haunted by the ghosts of years ago
They won't leave me be
They keep coming back for more

2008-10-26T12:06:00.002+08:00

Seventh Wonder - Mercy Falls(2008)

this album? in love. a wonderful masterpiece of progressive metal, one of the best concept albums i've heard so far. It tells a story of guy who finds out that his kid isn't his and crashes his car, and finds himself in a town called Mercy Falls. From the start of "A New Beginning" to "The Black Parade", the songs evoke feelings like a whole drama itself. The music is amazing and so are the lyrics. go have a listen. "So there you have it. Conceptual to the max"

'breathe life into mine Father, my spirit caught in this hell'

"don't you waste one more day in your life.. not one more day!"

live your life with energy; don't let your days pass meaninglessly because they're all you have; be sensible towards the world around you and live with passion

hmm i'm turning this place into an outlet for music reviews, lyrics and maybe demo recordings in the future.

sigh.

2008-10-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

Gamma Ray - Real World

Here I sit again and think about the world we know
the same old thing, where do we come from and where do we go
Sometimes I worry just too much, sometimes I just don't care
and if you're with me on this point, put your hands high in the air
Let me hear you say Yeah!

Sometimes I'm happy as can be and sometimes feel so low
and what is good and what is bad, I sometimes just don't know
The world is the most crazy place that we could have been
It seems the meaning of our life is going down in sin

So let me live and let me be
your eyes are blind
but I can see

God is an illusion and there ain't no paradise
and there is no underworld below
Out there is no Heaven and there ain't no Antichrist
Welcome to the real World
and the show!

So let me take you down my dear to places you don't know
a land that you have not been to and normally don't go
I have all your pleasure toys, the fortune and the fame
so when you come with me my friend
you'll never be the same

what i am here for? what do i want? am i in the real world?

this death, so devoid of life
each day i pray for an answer
will i ever rest in peace

i fear, the corpse within
the rot and restraint
wearing me thin
while thine soul fades away

hello world.

2008-10-19T22:50:00.005+08:00

Exodus - War Is My Shepherd
- Blacklist

i just read Shiva Rai's note, on the lack of airplay of metal songs on radio.

indeed, many times my ipod touch has been shoved back to me in disgust after seeing "Lamb of God - Redneck" or "Slayer- The Antichrist" or if not, i'll be dealt with comments such as "eeyer, metal", "noise". but there are a small, very small, minority who bother to put on the earphones and have a listen. we really appreciate that alot.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/note.php?note_id=32348284005&ref=nf

the article alone should suffice, for it has brought the subject beyond just musical creativity and even blasting the myth that the metal genre is basically "noise"

have a listen to bands like Metallica and Megadeth. and to their lyrics.

2008-10-19T19:48:00.002+08:00

Sum 41 - In Too Deep
- Pieces

the greater curse is to have it in life. that way, we experience more sorrow when we lose something. does the pleasure we derive from whatever we have outweigh the pain when we lose them? likewise, the ability to be conscious and aware is probably one of the depressing things you can get. to be reading and analysing every single detail around you means absorbing and conjuring up negative and positive energy. it makes you aware of all the things that you'd rather not know. it could also bring up things that would please you. but often the negativity sticks, and any other happy thoughts are flushed out. i'd rather not have it at all.

today's jam was good/bad. good that we've all got new equipment(yuhua's muthafucking dave mustaine dean vmt angel of death owns balls). bad that the studio and sound kinda sucked. and the songs weren't smooth. oh well. back to writing stuff.

2008-10-18T01:20:00.002+08:00

Stratovarius - Freedom

Like the wind I'm free to go anywhere
I got my song, it dances in the air
Now I know what to do with my life
So you will hear my freedom call

remember the day.

i'm quite happy for myself. for once i'm more poised towards training and more meaningful things. i'm result-driven, so all the buffing up and happy life is driving me on. hmm thats good.

2008-10-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

Scatman John - Scatman
- Scatman's World

its old school. its hip. its funky. it rocks.

drained of your kerosene
none left to rectify
the weary thoughts
that bleed your mind

bear the pain or bear more the same
and be death's to take

burn your soul
to keep it live
the reaper awaits
your charred demise

2008-10-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

Exodus - Blacklist

i'm onto your game
and i'm layin' the blame
and i'm addin' your name to my blacklist

life is bleak. i foresee days and nights at the dumpster.

deceit, deceit, all that you breed
makeshift reality, blind mysteries
defy your sight, make it penetrate
through this fatal facade

trust not what you see,
hide the memories
and take the miseries

recite, recite, all that you create
fact and fiction both intertwined
what is done, covers not the lies
but the hollow visage you made

trust not what you see,
hide the memories
and take the miseries

hmm its amazing what stuff one can come up within one night.

2008-10-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

Metallica - Fade To Black

"Life fades to black from silver grey"

there was never a more appropriate time, or a more fitting situation for this line.

i've got nothing to say, except say fuck and shit. i'm still in shock right now, so it'll be a while before i start thinking properly again.

CDDES. the subjects i expected to do well, crashed and burned. even those that weren't so stable, were left hanging at the edge.

i don't know. seriously. i hate this sort of feeling. the moment i crack, it'll be bad.

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further everyday
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost this can't be real
Can't stand this hell i feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye

we used to say we'll never play this song again. now its the one i wanna play most.

2008-10-05T22:51:00.003+08:00

Korn - Here To Stay
- Twisted Transistor
- Politics

here to stay's the song that got me kickstarted into metal. listen to the crazy riffage in the song and you'll know why, darn heavy. now i'm finally able to play it with the vampyre, after like 3 years

i'm been doing pw. and pw. and more pw for the past week. i think my mind's gone and drifted off already.

man i'm tired. i feel better, stronger etc. but i'm just so bloody tired. and i've got a bad feeling about my papers. but usually when i have bad feelings i do slightly better than expected.

ow.

2008-10-01T21:10:00.003+08:00

Prince - Pussy Control

haha i doubt this was by prince, but what the heck, its a bloody funny song.

jam on tuesday was some AWESUM SHITZ. the warwick's so fucking badass. the band's fucking kickass. even with the recording on half the max quality, it kicked metal up the asses. yuhua's dave mustaine angel of death guitar's coming this week, so the next time we jam with that and brian's truckster we're set to blow the amps away.

CS on tuesday after jam was awesome fun, even though it was only me aditya and manvinder. i think it rocked even more cause of the screening and headshots. damn we should play that more often, like after every jam till we go broke.

girl you need pussy control.

2008-09-29T23:47:00.002+08:00

Kotipelto - Dreams And Reality

timo kotipelto writes awesome lyrics, reflects the reality that is going on around us. so true, so true.

its the sad truth, but we're not alone. i always believe that life is fair and balanced, and that things will even out eventually. its just how you look at it.

i remember an entry from a cousin's blog, something about losing a comb or any other object and that even though you get another one it may never feel the same again. then it talked about how people feel upset when they lose the person who has always been walking home with them, because they are just not used to having no one by their side. i remember reading something else that made me think hard. is getting used to it, or "moving on" as called, all that it takes? what if it's just the wall that you hide behind? if so, what else must you do?

so damn frustrating

9. Dreams And Reality

I don't need a virgin
I don't want a whore
I can't get an angel
I'm not sure what I am searching for
My dreams and reality
Are worlds which collide
Confusion, illusion, are dancing side by side

Why don't you take, why don't you make me
Believe in something real
Don't hesitate, don't you push me away
Come the dawn, finally
I've been alone, but barely holding my own
Here waiting for you to call
Can't you see the wound inside of me
That's bleeding

Time after time
I've been left in my despair
What have I learned
Is it just not to care
Is it too much to ask for
The will to be free
How can I sift through all the lies
The pressure is starting to tear - it's all I can bear

Why don't you take, why don't you make me
Believe in something real
Don't hesitate, don't you push me away
Come the dawn, finally
I've been alone, but barely holding my own
Here waiting for you to call
Can't you see the wound inside of me
That's bleeding

Still I'm here waiting, for a miracle, so damn frustrating
To believe at all

2008-09-29T11:01:00.002+08:00

Metallica - No Remorse
- Ride The Lightning

i used to detest playing such songs, cause my bass always sounds like shit. but now i can't wait to play it with the boys.

oh no. training has started. not that it makes any difference at all, i've been dishing out damage to the weights since end of nationals. but at least it gives me something to do during the holidays. time to stop all the unhealthy shit.

the last paper isn't going well for me. but its only been one day out of the three months for the paper. hmm.

2008-09-28T22:54:00.004+08:00

Nightwish - Wish I Had An Angel

woot! hietala's bass is here!

on friday it was at swee lee

today its mine.

tone's bloody awesome, thick low ends and high gain attacks from pops. i think it owns the rest of the basses in that place. and its an amp killer. i tried it at the store, the volume was less than 1/4 through and once i put the bass and neck pickup on full, it pretty much rattled everything else in the area. then i tried on my pathetic 25W amp and even with the volume knob just a step higher than zero, the sound's bloody loud and starts to crack on the low notes. other than that, like said in many other reviews, the tone fits all styles and i guess its just what i need.

now i'm 1.2k poorer and i'm still finding funds to go for motley crue. and plus i still want to get that Xotic bass preamp.

and i'm still bored. damn.

2008-09-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

Kotipelto - King Anti-Midas
- Dreams And Reality
- Mr Know-It-All

yeaaaah. i finally got the kotipelto album

promos? whats that?

its not over yet. there's one more paper. its called Get A Life. its a three month paper. you may begin now.

anyway, i'm finally getting a new bass. after like months of seeking and going back on my words, i'm getting a warwick vampyre rockbass. its the one used by marco hietala recently, totally kickass tight sound with distortion especially. and its jazz pickups, so the slap and pop tone's pretty awesome too.

8. Mr. Know-It-All

Funny how I have realized
People like you so high and wise
Telling us how to live our lives
Speaking 'bout things you just surmise

They call you Mr. Know-it-all
So proud contriving in your clever mind

But do you really have the balls
Or could it be you're weak inside
And that you've got something to hide

Seems like you always know it all
What ever I say you're never wrong
If this was a game you'd own the ball
Time and again the same ol' song
Look at you you're never wrong

There are people who want to be
At the center of every scene
Hard as they try, fail to impress me
I'm telling now, you're not supreme

2008-09-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

Stratovarius - Will The Sun Rise?
- Know The Difference
- Twilight Symphony

more! more! classical music claims to make you study better. power metal assures you of an A.

econs today was owned. i don't know, but i felt good about the paper.

its the night before chemistry paper. mid years, the night before that was a sleepless and a fitful one. not because of the paper, but something much more worse. depressing, actually.

will it happen tonight again? it feels like it.

NO. NOT THIS TIME.

i get my sleep finally.

2008-09-20T01:35:00.002+08:00

Stratovarius - Stratovarius
- Stratosphere
- Stratofortress

power metal owns. more more neo-classical power shit.

i just woke up, and now my body thinks i'm awake. off to watch more lame shit on youtube and metacafe.

2008-09-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

Exodus - War Is My Shepherd
- Forward

Testament - Henchmen Ride

my new earwax. exodus and testament kick muthafucking ass i swear.

i've been slacking. like completely. i start work for two hours and then stop totally. but i still want my A's and my new bass. and throw in new pedals and a wireless set. thats probably all i need for motivation.

its been day 3 at siglap starbucks. a few more days to go. siglap is just chill.

2008-09-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

Turmion Katilot - Shuttle To Venus
- U.S.C.H

Metallica - Death Magnetic Album

metallica's the shit. the riffs are back. but the drums are really disappointing. i only hear the crashes, snare and bass drum. no intense drumfills anymore, just basic beats and lots and lots of snare. even if lars had to emphasise that he changed his snare, he didn't have to overdo it. overall the album kicks ass though.

on another note i feel like doing alot of mindless headbanging now. hmmm

2008-09-12T08:54:00.002+08:00

Metallica - Death Magnetic

i'm listening to the album online,

and it fucking owns. the riffs are back \m/

2008-09-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

Turmion Katilot - Shuttle To Venus
- U.S.C.H

i feel tormented by the many things and thoughts around. its like these things keep swirling around your head and you don't know what to do about them.

i don't know. i'm confused. thats all i can say now. i need

2008-09-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

Motley Crue - Kickstart My Heart
- All In The Name Of...

MOTLEY CRUE'S COMING TO SINGAPORE BITCHEZ. WOOTS.

i feel drained and weary. as if the life has been sucked out of me. i stare at the world through hollow spaces, void of feeling and emotion.

maybe its physical. hmm. yeah i think i feel unreal again. and i'm getting used to it.

everyone makes mistakes, thats why they put erasers on the back of pencils.

2008-09-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

For My Pain - Broken Days
Kamelot - Until Kingdom Come

and i'm back to normal. amazing huh.

i'll take a risk tonight and take paracetamol, knowing very well that i might end up with a huge lip or itching body tomorrow morning. but what the heck.

this is long overdue

for those of you who didn't quite make it down that day, it's the song that blew fucking minds away. thanks supadupafly dom for the upload!

2008-09-03T21:55:00.003+08:00

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue

NO WAY IN HELL THIS IS HAPPENING AGAIN.

fuck i seriously don't know what's going on now.

fuck i'll just shut up and return to being non-existent. everyone will be better off without hearing anything from or of me.

today's been quite nasty.

[edit]

another one bites the dust. welcome friend.

2008-09-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue
- Make You Feel Better
Kamelot - Until Kingdom Come

1. Smile, as in really smile.

2. Now we'll take it, its better for you.

3. Everytime I feel like picking it up again, I push it away and scar myself, just a gentle reminder.

4. As a friend, I know you well enough, we'll pull through this shit together.

5. I still have my debt to repay.

6. The way to succeed and the way to suck eggs.

7. We don't have to hold on to the pain to hold on to the memory. Simple, no?

8. Fix me.

2008-09-01T14:56:00.002+08:00

Infectious Grooves - Boom Boom Boom
- Die Lika Pig
Motorhead - Bomber
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue

i heard infectious grooves properly for the first time yesterday. its the new shit, seriously. its the perfect fusion of metal and funk.

today's been such a muthafucking waste. i woke up 3 hours ago and ending up stoning infront of the com and going back to sleep. fuck i'm heading to the house gym after and kill myself, then i'll come back and start studying proper.

i just read yuhua's blog. and it made my day by providing a sliver of entertainment.

" sure they may not be there to see 3 motherfucking hard guys who actually made masks to surprise you people and who were actually looking forward to the "performance", they may not be into rock music, they may have some hearing difficulty which instead of hindering their hearing ability, actually enchances it such that they cover their ears at any screeching solo, storming bassline, or insane drum beats which we are played at soundcheck at.. a tenth of our usual stage volume.

but at least show some respect goddammit and some fucking support for your own victorians! i dont expect all of you to sing and dance along to the songs. but you could stand up if a guy like me has the balls to ask you too infront of the whole school, cause god knows how much money ill need to give you to get your pussy-ass even up on stage. "

"the HOD of ARTS can come up and say that we suck when we get..

a) a sound system which i believe i can overpower solely with the power of my vocal cords and the blessing of god

b)amps the size of my penis (wow okay thats big, no maybe not!!)

c)a mic stand that keeps shifting the mic, so i have to keep readjusting my head
p.s if it looks like i was bobbing to the music, get this straight i definetly wasnt.

d)and finally, the shittiest crowd that i ever have and probably ever will play too in my entire lifetime. "

funny shit. this guy kicks ass.

"so yes im motivated as hell, i got a new spunk in my step, i want the band to do well so that we can show these plastic victorians just what they're missing out on. "

wonderful. i have alot of stuff to look forward to now. \M/

i feel elated/weird/like the lost soul wandering around during hungry ghost festival and has nothing to take. there's still something thats been weighing me down, but i can't quite put my finger on it. maybe i'll do some reflection while doing gym.

2008-08-30T23:39:00.003+08:00

Motorhead - Please Don't Touch

Don't you touch me baby 'cause I'm shakin' so much
Don't you touch me baby 'cause I'm shakin' so much
Don't you touch me baby 'cause I'm shakin' so much
Don't you touch me baby 'cause I'm shakin' so much

You know, there aint no other woman, that could make me feel this way
She get's up close, you know, I just aint got a word to say

GO MOTORHEAD.

2008-08-30T23:19:00.002+08:00

Motorhead - Damage Case
- Iron Horse

I AM BONG. totally. polarix didn't play together, cause everyone was fucking sick and fucking tired and nobody was in the condition or mood to play. oh well, the whole thing feels like its hanging in the air again.

i spent a quiet afternoon at siglap starbucks today, for about 4 hours or so. i finished a chem and a math paper and the java chip frap lasted through the whole thing. and it was infinite times more productive than trying to study at home. and i finished the whole thing with a long visit to the new starbucks toilet.

then it was a rush down to scape park to collect our plaque and watch della play their set. that was some good stuff there man, crazy train and o'riley. but the place felt quite dead again i guess, there wasn't a good crowd tonight.

bah i need some rest.

2008-08-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

Motorhead - Ace Of Spades
- Damage Case
- Bomber

motorhead's good. i'm suddenly into them.

ah fuck i'm feeling so fucking disorientated and empty these days. all the studying isn't giving any progress either. i think i need a day off.

tomorrow's our last gig before we take a break for promos. god let us end this whole thing on high. then we can happily(grudgingly) embark on a mugging fest.

2008-08-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

Slayer - Raining Blood
- Disciple

so, singapore band challenge came and went. polarix got runner up, with lots of lessons vouchers and 400 bucks in cash.

well we sort of knew the result after the judges' comments. boring and long. basically they tried to put the metal genre down. yeah we were tight, but it was probably song choice.

but you know what?

SO FUCKING WHAT.

polarix put up a fucking good show and we know it and the people in arena knows it. the slayer medly and master of puppets was in their faces, muthafucking tight. polarix will be back with new shit, i tell you.

(after our muthafucking promos)

rest of the bands put up a pretty good show too, psychotherapy with metal church \M/ that gotta rule. LONG LIVE METAL.

2008-08-18T23:25:00.003+08:00

Racer X - Technical Difficulties
- Scarified

its shredding time.

days been good, days been cool. i think i'm probably happier cause i spam milk and protein nowadays. and plus the ultimate warrior training's probably making me feel better. and plus i'm actually doing all the right healthy shit for mental health.

reform in 2 months.